Monday, December 31, 2007.

life is an occassion,
rise to it.

{ 3:11 PM }

Monday, December 24, 2007.

my very first xmas present >>

A TED BAKER TOP!!

wuuuuhooooo~

{ 2:12 PM }

Friday, December 21, 2007.

just met up with a client
oh my gosh..

he is sooooo cute!
nice accent.
nice brown eyes.
nice personality.

but...
he's getting married.

damm!

{ 3:11 PM }

Thursday, December 20, 2007.

prior to this
i wrote alot of entries
my reflections for the past one year
i took time in writing it
but i decided to delete them away

i guess there is no point in holding on to what i have
cause what i have now is just the ghost of you and me

what i have to do now
is to deal with it
just as how i have dealt with it earlier

ur happy now.
tat is all that matters
there's nothing more that i can do

{ 7:05 PM }

Tuesday, December 18, 2007.

{ 10:35 AM }

Wednesday, December 12, 2007.

for now..
blogging is the only thing that interests me.
it's a place where i can vent and whine all i want with no one to stop me
lol.

blogging, it's really addictive

{ 11:06 AM }

Saturday, December 08, 2007.

i thought i was strong enough
but i guess i took it for granted

being strong to me now is jus pretence
it's just to hide away my weaknesses...

{ 6:20 AM }

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

{ 12:34 AM }

Friday, December 07, 2007.

it's eating into me again..

i miss you.

{ 4:31 PM }

thru these months of agony,
i really thank god for friends.

audrey. claris. jasmine. yuwen.
you girls really see me thru

early morning phone calls
wrestling with me with words
building me up
putting up with all of my wailings
helping me with each step i take climbing out of the dark, slippery gutter that i fell into

you all have been with me since

audrey,
a complete opposite side of me when it comes to dealing with things.
thru these months, we compromised with each other thoughts.
you taught me to be more hard hearted.
i taught you to be more understanding.
which kinda balances our crazy emotions and thinking..

claris,
my dear..
such a funny way that we met
lol.
we have only known each other for about 3 months?
u girl have been my pillar of support
encouraging me
always reminding me of god's love and words
all the late nights of chit chatting, four cheese, chicken wings and baileys green tea has brought us this far..

jasmine,
wad to say about you
brut to your words
and str8 to the point
that's y i love you dear..
we have saw each other thru loads of shit i suppose
from church life and out into the world
lol.

yuwen,
so funny that we have actually got together this way
god's way, i suppose
you have said to me alot alot alot of things
though sometimes it doesnt get into my head
it does also stirs my heart to think about it
thruout this time, whenever my hopes were high.
you really took a needle and burst my bubble
though it hurts, but i rather hear the truth
though it blows, at least i know
hope we will have a long way to go as friends!

as the saying goes
if you hang out with turkey, you will be a turkey
if you hang out with eagles, you will soar like one.

:)

{ 12:25 PM }

Thursday, December 06, 2007.

a complete stranger to me now

in short
you no longer love urself.

{ 3:19 PM }

you two are two peas in pod
using the exact same way to spike each other

wtf.

let me tell you this
u both are selfish
only caring about ur own feelings

making use of your previous partner
giving them hope
brought them up
and kick them back down again

under table method

maybe i should hook up with ur ex
and you will know what i mean

if you both are reading this
and you know i'm talking about you guys
reflect and refrain from doing it again

there's such thing as karma alright?

{ 10:38 AM }

Wednesday, December 05, 2007.

My dear Kelly.
weeks of drama for kel, i dont understand how or why this is happening to her, she's the nicest girl i've ever met... its breaking my heart to see her like this.. i cant do much to help but to be there for her.Dont reserve your heart anymore, guard it and when the time is right ask our dear lord to enlighten it for you alright.. i know time is killing you right now but thats what you need. Remember learn how to say 'NO' its time to love yourself start thinking for yourself on your own basis and the people around you that you love much hey. You may feel helpless especially when things are beyond your control but babe hang in there alright. Be secure in your own world, god would open up a way for you always. i love you alright.babe, dont fret; things will begin to settle back down in a few weeks...

{ 5:09 PM }